It's been nearly a year since I posted with any sort of regularity. A year ago my precious baby boy was born and it took me a while to recover. Then we had a house fire and Christmas and with regularly posting grocery store deals on my Thrifty Rapid City website, I just didn't have a lot of free computer time. (I generally stay off the computer while my kids are awake and my husband gets first dibs when he's home.) After a lot of thought, I've stopped writing for the thrifty website. I find myself with more free time and well, let's just say I am finally getting my curtains rehung post-fire.
I am foolish enough to think that perhaps I will find more time for jottings here too.
Because there are things to say. Questions of life and meaning and beauty and truth rumbling around in my heart that won't quite speak until I've written them down. So much that matters so much more than I realize and I don't know just how I fit in. Or if I am strong enough to fit myself into this vast masterpiece of a universe called real faith.
One challenge I've been giving myself lately: just say yes. If the thought occurs to me to slow at the side of the road and give the man with the sign a bag of bagels and a five - then I ought to. If I think that perhaps I should set aside my hoped for floor scrubbing and make a painting with my kids then I should say YES. If the thought enters my mind that what am I thinking wanting it easier in this life when I could pour myself out in this life and receive 1000-fold in the next - then that is just exactly what I ought to be doing.